I’m tired of waiting for goodnight kisses that don’t come. Can’t you hear my waist, the dip behind my ear wondering where you are? Can’t you feel me beneath your ribs, in the tendons, in your gums? But taxes need to be figured. Another article needs writing. The dog has to go to the vet. Our oldest is trying to hold down a job, hold back his pit bull from mauling his girlfriend, who is in her 34th week. Another son, at art school for a while, finally moved out of the bedroom upstairs, but grocery money seems hard to hold onto between poker games. The 4th child, the one who reads Kafka for fun, can’t manage to graduate with his high school class. But what we have built with Legos and Scrabble, our hopes, our teeth, is enough to end each day thanking the sheets for each other. So forget the mail, the mower, the children. Test this pillow with me. We have some building to do.
KMA Sullivan is the author of Necessary Fire, winner of the St Lawrence Book Award (forthcoming from Black Lawrence Press, 2014). Her poems have recently appeared or are forthcoming in Boston Review, Southern Humanities Review, Forklift, Ohio, The Nervous Breakdown,Gargoyle, diode, and Anti-, among others. Recent essays have appeared in The Rumpus, The Good Men Project, and Nailed. She has been awarded residencies in creative nonfiction and poetry at Virginia Center for the Creative Arts, Vermont Studio Center, and Summer Literary Seminars and she is the editor-in-chief of Vinyl Poetry and the publisher at YesYes Books.
Photo by Tina Modotti.